"I just want to have a completely adventurous, passionate, weird life."
You know how the weather can affect your mood? Well im up north and it gets cold and starts to snow really early, and the sky turns grey and there’s like a dystopian feel in the air by the end of the day. And it makes me feel heartache everyday at some point. No matter how I distract myself with other things that momentarily bring me happiness, I get shot with reality, with things I can’t help, like the people I love, or my fear of putting myself out there.
I’ve just been feeling really helpless lately, and I know I will escape this feeling, and time heals, its just…..the constant heartache, and the weather doesn’t help. I miss florida.
"I am very sad and I feel more miserable than I can say, and I do not know how far I’ve come. I do not know what to do or what to think, but vehemently desire to leave this place."
"Who the fuck cares where you went to school or where you work? The question is: Is your everyday experience good, healthy, beautiful? Because I have to tell you, while it might be cool to work for a company like Google, Apple, or The New Yorker, if your job is stupid, stressful and your boss is an asshole, there is nothing good or prestigious about that. While it might seem right to go to a school like Berkeley, if classes are overcrowded and students are nervous, anxious, religious zealots from Orange County, are you sure you want to go there? What’s good about that? To believe in prestige is to privilege abstract, collective impression over palpable, daily experience. To which I say: fuck prestige. Do what serves your everyday vitality."